Sorry to hear about your head injury and all the suffering
you´ve had to go thru all these years.
There is nothing ludicrous / naÏve in your question, as far as I´m concerned and I was wondering if the following offer for distant healing M A Y help you as it has many others.
By way of clarification: I am not the "channel" for the distant qigong healing as explained if you took the time to read the whole thread!! I guess I should have mentioned the link, before doing the copy and paste. You would need to join up for the next "free distant healing session" IF you can resonate with this type of healing.