I need your help and support because I'm struggling

Hi everyone. I'm here to ask for help and some words of encouragement because I've just have had about enough with feeling like this. I've been beating myself over not starting the fast soon enough! I've fasted many times before, my longest Water Fast was for 26 days last summer. I wanted to start an extended WF June 1st and couldn't go on. Ever since then, I've been postponing my fast and we're already in August and I'm so depressed and I can't sleep. I need to fast because I feel very slugish, no mental clarity, just everything is horrible in my life right now. Thank God for all my blessings and for my health, but I need the strength to do this fast. I just can't seem to jump back on the wagon..I work very long hours every day and everytime I think it's 'The Day'..I end up feeling very tired no energy and end up having something to eat. I run my own business and it's very challenging. I can't take a few days off and rest to do the WF I just need some willpower and some kind words from you guys because I really really need to fast. I feel so toxic and I overload on junk food. Please some advice? Thank you all in advance and to you that are already fasting congrats on doing so. I'm praying to start this fast as soon as I can. I'm female..26 years old and in desperate need to regain my health back..I miss that feeling of getting up early and feeling engerized, now I wake up early and feel like I'm mad at the world and miserable. It's affecting me in so many ways I can't even begin to describe...