Re: I give up

twice a day for a half an hour i use meditation - you can cut it to twenty minutes if you want, but the difference in the emotional quality of my day after meditation is so remarkable. when i can't kick a bad feeling i get my running shoes on and i get the butt off chair or couch and i MOVE, i move for over an hour. i take my mind off of everything and i listen to music or i'll loop a book or a speech by someone i am inspired by so that i can REMEMBER who i am. this might be tearing you apart in some regard, but you are still here. don't wish you had cancer. my X got cancer and i wished it was me, but trust me... you DON'T WANT it. we will ALL die successfully one day, none of us is immortal or an island. you can help yourself manage your suffering until you get your balance back. i suggest reading "as a man thinketh", it's short, beautifully written, easily read and inspiring. you aren't alone, you only are when you CHOOSE to be! remember that. it's up to you. peace