Re: so depressed

Jboy please believe me when I say its the benzos ok ?

cause it is

I remember crossing over to valium straight off of zanax and I had such an anger rage fit that I could have killed anyone that got in my business that day ! I am not kidding either . I was so angry I went outside and kicked the dirt till I felt better LOLOLOL.. but I also wasnt stable either yet. at the time I was seriously angry and thank God noone was around to take it out on but you know what ? I made it through that one and all the others to come and so did the rest of my family too haha!

It didnt last long though ,at the most an hour or maybe 2

I found the best thing to do when this happens is to get away from everyone so as not to harm them or say something outta anger and just get your anger out safely . maybe you could beat up a pillow ? or jog in place till the negative energy leaves you . cause if you are like I was with the anger came energy and I had to get it out someway somehow that was safe for me and those around me . So you may want to try something like that to help you until it passes.also a lot of times after a rage fit I would just crash cause my adrenals were then shot too and that was much needed rest as I wore myself out acting like a bad***

I too had horrible Depression along with the anger and rage fits . I would go off by myself and just cry it out and then I felt better for a while . I was an emotional roller coaster at times bouncing off the walls and others no energy or life in me at all .

I was short tempered with my kids and husband and at times I couldnt even stand myself and I felt so inadequate I began to question everything about myself and who I was or who I * thought * I was .I felt worthless at times and if I hadnt started cleaning houses(cause I couldnt hold down a regular job) I would not have even had a job . I had always worked and I didnt like not being a productive person .
But I forced myself to do what I had to do to survive until I got better .

It wasnt me though . It was the benzo as I am not like that now at all .My hubby has noticed a big change in me and he says I am way calmer than I was before while on the benzo or coming off of them

I still have my moments and I have always been hot tempered and so called sensitive but its nothing I cannot overcome

** honey there is nothing that that drug wont mess with when it comes to your body and mind **

I am not trying to write you a book here though or overwhelm you with all this . I could go on and on about my experience with benzos and coming off them .

just hope that by telling you some of my experiences that it may help you know that you are not alone and that ** you can get through this! **

I am here if you need me Jboy !

love and warm hugs
Ann_33



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