How do you deal with ....

So my mother was abused by my father. She finally leaves him when I was 3 when he beat the crap out of her while she was holding me. It took THAT to get rid of him. He's a narcissistic a**ho** to the letter. I talk to him like once a year.

fast forward 20+ years.

I see my mother as a passive, naive idiot who believes anything anyone says. Her brother/my uncle hates me. That's another story. But he has lied to her about me and has said things about me.. he's another narcistic and I see similarities between him and my father. THe only difference is the uncle isn't a woman abuser. Just a bipolar mental abusing a**ho** to everyone else.

The rest of the family knows he's wacked. What bothers me is that my mother has actually believed him over me. For example = Once I was pissed off about something..nothing to do with ANYONE they know. I was bitching about it and then drove off. He happened to be around and heard me and saw it. So after I left, he called my mother and told her that I was such a "nutcase" that I almost ran over a woman pushing a baby carriage.
I saw this woman with the baby carriage, she was NOWHERE Near me!! NOWHERE!! I know where she lives and she was in front of her house up another street. I don't even know how to explain the ridiculousness of it online. When you stand at the end of my driveway, to the right there is another street going UP. She was way UP there. I did NOT go up that street. She called me hysterical and crying saying I was going to "kill someone" and I was just raging. I told her the only person I would like to kill is him and her for believing something that asinine. I told her where the woman lives and told her to go knock on her door and ask her. She didn't and dropped it.


I've been put in other situations where I could've been killed, raped..whatever. Due to this a**ho** and my mother allowing it and not sticking up for me or fighting for me. She's a weak stupid bitch. The guy is like God and has ruined my life in some ways and everything else. My mother watched and just cries and wanted me to play nice and kiss his ass as well and I refused. So I'm the badguy.

Regardless of wackjob Uncle, I don't know how to deal with my mother allowing everything to happen. I feel that if she had to do it over that she would do it exactly the same way and not change a thing. I am now stuck living with her and we "get along" but it eats me up every f***ing day. I hate her!

Last week I watched Uncle a**ho** target my brother instead. And my mother just sitting back, playing nice. Really, how do you deal with something like this? I just bury it inside and can't wait to get the hell away from her. Uncles are useless..but when it's your freaking mother it hurts!