Re: Blessings from 2010

I'm grateful for this forum, and particularly this thread Beth - thank you.

I'm grateful for my strong mum and grandmother, who have been my rocks through this difficult period.

I never envisaged in my life that I would be so deeply sick and troubled, just hanging on for dear life, wondering what I will "make" happen next.

It just seems that the deeper I go to try to heal, particularly with unnatural non-food substances, the more tangled the web becomes and other sicknesses are added to me. I was trying hydrolysed collagen just recently (to support connective tissues) and I think somehow it caused a varicose vein in my testicle, which is painful and could affect fertility. I suppose that everything can be healed to some extent, given the love and right approach.

To look around at others continuing with their normal lives and mine gradually slipping away has been truly sickening, especially now considering how fragile life can be (even though we're strong survivors). It's sad to see people positive for me and then slowly become more apathetical as I become worse from things failing to work.

Some people around me sarcastically say "Found a cure yet?" when they see me on the PC, as they're munching on their white bread loaded with jam etc.

However, while we're still living, there is still hope/love.

Life is vast in its lessons and I suppose it's those who are humble enough to continue with love that "inherit the Earth".

The word "healing" means becoming whole again and that's my intention for the coming year...

I'm hoping not to become so deranged or dysregulated that I cannot hold on anymore and the wind blows me away in its unassuming, faithful course. Tweet