Hey there,
sorry to hear that you are so unhappy because of your stretch marks. Yes, they are ugly, and make you feel bad about your body.
However, it is not impossible to get rid of them, the only thing you need is a little patience and consistency in your treatment. There are high quality creams that can help you in a period of a month or two, but you must use them regularly, not expect that they will fade away after one treatment.
I used the Revitol stretch mark cream, and they faded almost completely after six weeks, but I used it everyday, three times a day.. you may find more about it all over the internet, for example on this site: http://www.howtogetridofstretchmarkseasy.com