In A Nightmare

Don't be mistaken, I'm not dyeing. I am however broke and not employed and after many years of trying to fix my health not any better. Water Fasting should not have been a last resort, but it turns out that's the case. I've lost all family and friend support. I have no where to go. I'm also pretty sure this apartment I just got into has mold. At the same time; I'm going to loose this apartment in fifty days. When I was younger I was exposed heavily to black mold for years. Some of my older symptoms are returning. I just wanted a safe environment to do a prolonged fast, prepare better foods ext. I rushed out of my previous address because of other issues. Now this problem, I'm really feeling some potent emotions that words can't describe.

I just want to get better. I'm three days into a water fast. I'm waiting on welfare. I have no where else to go. My life has now totally fallen apart. I'm going to keep fasting, as I don't have money for food any way. I have no idea what fasting in a mold environment will do to me. I'm already messed up despite all this. If it gets really bad I might turn to the street and fast there. I have no idea where that will take me.