Correction number one: My friend supports me in fighting this illness, not she supports my illness.
Correction number two: I don't despise you.
Refreshed, I follow many on the moreless website that have my similar symptoms. Despite doing the protocol with great effort it sounds like, there are those that haven't recovered, even after many many months. What motivation would I have to blindly follow that protocol? I do seek God's guidance, and then I do what seems wise to do.
I'm not an easy case, like you once said. Plus I have a huge amount of stress in my life in all kinds of ways that I cannot control. But God is in control, and that is the hope that I hold onto.