Are you saying that God gave you your illness and it has purpose? If your illness has a God intended purpose....why are you trying to heal with natural means? Doesn't that sound like you are going against God's will, if that is a true statement?
I would apologize for upsetting you but I can't apologize for my christian beliefs, just because they are different than yours.
Some illness's are due to our poor care of ourselves....which cause illness. God will not take credit for our wrong doings in our lives. You are just trying to make sense of why some people are born sick. God is very aware that people will be born with disabilities and sickness that is no fault of theirs and God will take illness that was brought about due to whatever reason to be used for good (His purpose).
I'm sorry but I'm not blaming God for illness....I would still be ill with multiple sclerosis if I did that. Sin has come into this world and it affects everything that it touches....even our genetics. God will still use us for His purpose.....and that purpose is special.
You are special Vektek and don't forget it....but don't put the monkey on God's back that He was cruel enough to make you sick.