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Thanks, I guess I just needed some reassurance.

I love him, and I love the present we have together.
I just hate thinking that my past could possibly matter in it all.

I feel wrong keeping things from him, and lying about it just to keep things strong.

But I also do feel it is needed.
And that none of it matters, it just gives him reason to judge me outside of the person that hes come to know of me.

I know we are young, but we have been together along time.
I want things to continue to work out in the long run, but I want to make sure I am going about it all the right way.

I feel bad because it all hurts him, and because I feel the pain is un-needed, I lie about it. I cannot change it, so I feel no need to hover on it. I do not regret my past, he should not be giving me any reason too.

I don't want this to bite me in the ass later down the road, but I feel that the whole concept of some secrets are needed to keep a relationship running strong is a true one. It just took a little talking about it to understand it.

I have never lied to him about anything, and if it just happens that out of all our relationship I lie about one night that happened before we even knew each other, then I do not seem the harm.

If I did not want to keep him, I would not bother trying to find people to talk about it to. I just don't want to feel that I am in the wrong. Tweet