Re: For Anne_33 (and any/everybody of course :) 3 in 1 response

thanks for your post Willow and T..I really wanna do what is right here and now.. I feel fine today other than a little dragged down mentally over what all has been going on.


I went to court this morning and seen my daughter there all giddy thinking she was gonna get out today..well it didnt happen..she is in there till thursday ..it broke my heart to see her in cuffs and shackles and that black and white striped suit .. she has brought shame onto me and the family . I am worried about her being mental right now too.
she has been depressed in the past and with all her behavior she really needs help..

I am an emotional wreck right now ..I am so worried about her choosing the wrong path ..found out today that she has been smoking pot and drinking ...and goin from one guy to the next and she absolutely will not listen to anything I or anyone else says... she is breaking my heart and I just cant stand anymore stress! period! I never raised my daughter that way and cant understand why she is doing all this ..
her boyfriend and his dad are calling me constantly which I am friends with his dad but I absolutely cannot stand anymore drama !
I tried to get away for the weekend to get away from stress and it seems to follow me wherever I go..

I was just really upset last night and maybe I was overly sensitive to everything .. worried bout today and court and all ..

I didnt mean to be but sometimes I just cant take life as it is ..its way to complicated for me to even try at times..

I dont have the tools to deal with it apparently either

when I have had all I can take I just stay away from everything /everybody until my body/mind can calm down enough to regroup and think about a solution . so in other words when I dont know what to do I do nothing ..

I love ya'll and I love Uny too and I know she means well on everything and that she was /is only trying to help but I was feeling down and still am ..and its easy to take stuff to heart when you are already down huh?

wish there was a support group for parents with teenagers !

its easy to say to someone ..just get over it and do this and do that but in reality it just doesnt work that way at all ..

what I need is to be able to focus on the project at hand and I am unable to do so for very long at a time ..thats a big hurdle for me that I have tried to overcome for so long . I really hate that about myself ..not being able to follow through on anything ..which if I say I am gonna do something I try my best to make it so cause I dont wanna let down the other person..does that make any sense?
I know I need to do stuff for me and not anyone else but I cant seem to for some reason or another ..I am falling apart here mentally and physically..no wonder my neck is outta whack! its from all the stress and tensed up muscles all the time ...

and with everything else going on I am so distracted that I cannot possibly get it together to do anything about my health or life ...I cant even get a load of laundry done right now cause its too much stress !

I really dont know what to do at this point but just wait and see what happens with my daughter on thursday ..I am gonna give her a good talking to ..she will know what I think about her situation for sure and I hope some of it will sink into that head of hers ..at least I will feel better when I can release some emotional feelings to her . its just not fair when you raise a kid and do the best you can for her to have her turn around and do what she is doing to everyone around her ...

I am gonna see a different chiro today at 4.. he checked me out at the home garden expo yesterday and said my atlas was way off in my neck and my body is leaning to one side and that I had nerve compression and I was tight all the way down ..go figure on that one..anyways I sure hope he can fix me up .
.said he had the traction machine there to stretch my neck out to give me relief too... also bought me a Dr.Relief machine...its like a tens unit that the chiros use ..they sell those at the expo!! I have been wanting one of those for a while now..it was $250 ! ..anyways I got one now and it will help with the back and neck pain and tension and without drugs too so yay.. I tell ya when it gets so bad I have to take a muscle relaxer to ease my pain so I can sleep and I really hate doing that but since I cant use anything like the bf&c formula because of reactions I gotta do what works for me here and now..so maybe that unit will help me in more ways than one..
but I know I gotta get it together soon and do what it takes for me to regain my health and sanity ..

please understand that I am just a good candidate right now for anything but trying to get my life in order and understanding my daughters behavior and helping her any way that I can .. I think that when I can get that straight then I will be able to focus more on my health and cleansing .. I didnt not mean to come off the way I did last night but I have literally met my breaking point at this time and need downtime to recoup ..

I really appreciate the posts of encouragement here and I love ya'll too and am glad I was able to share my feelings and life with you all.. thats a blessing to me
I dont expect anyone to do anything more than just listen to me ..something I have never had anyone do is just listen ..anyways this a healing forum and not a whining,crying forum..its for happy healing stories so sorry to disrupt it for ya ..

I will keep this stuff to pm's only if anyone wants to pm me..

keep on keeping on

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