I agree precisely, that's why I moved on, and that reason was because theirs was built on the "ego".
One was told that with "training" one could be a sort of have dominant power over others.
That one could induce "fear" into others by simply "looking them in the eye".
That was not what I was seeking to do in my life.
So without physically employing myself into their ranks I would only have interpretations of their intent.
It did not cost me a cent Spud because I was at the preliminary stages, but to me the writing was on the wall and I was not prepared to be sucked into others illusions of power and control.