...training wheels, yes - and to think of a lifetime spent never getting beyond is sad, pointless somehow. The strength of my intuitive life is freedom - uncommon sense, extra-sensory and it has been good to veer from the herd in open rebellion and quiet down again with absolute certainty that so much more goes on which most cannot see. Near-death multiple times was good for me - that which most get near usually once yielded a fearlessness of the right kind.
And both Joseph Campbell and Jung happened along in my travels - a path taken by few from where I was standing, so it has been also great to find in these forums others who got beyond the brimstone. And more amazing that some have never been scarred by the shrapnel at all? Is that even possible in this world - to have been spared the indoctrination of religiousity? Your comparison of abuse and God's M.O. can hardly be ignored by the too many who have experienced the cycle, unless they remain in denial and are de-sensitized to the pain, gravitating toward the false notion of this equaling love. I am alive and sober and abuse free because I changed my mind ......