I feel your pain and I've been where you are, email me and we will talk. The lord healed me of my problem and I had it for 25 years."God has not given you a Spirit of fear, but Of POWER,LOVE AND OF A SOUND MIND" I'll tell you how I started my healing and we can swap stories and see what we can come up with. I want to help you. Have you seen a doctor yet? I know what you are going through. God bless.