i know how you feel sucide goes through my head all the time but difference is i really alone i have no friends no girl friend nothing.but you have a husband who loves u and 3 kids.i wake up hoping one day to have a family but for now i have nothing and with my odor may die alone so dont take what you do have for granted plus dont bring something like that on your family if you ever want to talk i can give you my number but just maintain and f*** what people say or think and just do you