Hey Van! Thoought you must be coming up day 40!!

Hi!

I got up this morning and beetled straight to the computer, thinking - what day is Van on? It must be tomorrow or the next day. Excited I was!

This is just soooooooooo wonderful! What a journey!

Have you made plans about what juices you are switching over too?

Sigh!!

I just had a thought - something that came up for me.

I felt really, really good when I switched to juices and I wanted to stay on them. I didn't have an idea of for how long or anything - it just felt so right and wonderful.

I was and had been during my fast - under alot of pressure from family and friends to eat. Actually, no support on the home front at all and alot of "concern". They all freaked in their own ways about me fasting full-stop and the length of time my fast ended up being.

I can relate in some ways. I remember how nervous! and scared! I was when I started. Would I just cave in - turn into some food craving monster - screw up my body, screw up my mind? Fail - and things stay the same?

I did tell everyone I was taking it day by day and hoping I would make it to 10 - which seemed so unobtainable. But I did it and somewhere in there - so many of my fears went away and I realised I was doing something so good and special. Especially now I am off the fast - I mean things like my poop is so much better! lol!! This is a biggie for me who has had diarrhea all my life. I am having to learn how to spend time on the toilet as solids come out - not just a quick dump of fluids. My poop is like large pebbles now - a big pile of pebbles that come out one by one and take a little time to do it. Not a lot of time, but a little.

But of course everyone around me was like - You said you would stop after 10 days!!!! Which is not what I had said at all.

Anyway, point being, by the time I decided to make the switch to juices on day 29, the pressure was on to eat - big time - from everyone.In the end I did juice for 3 days and loved it, but would have liked longer.

I guess what I want to say is that I hope you are in a position to do whatever it is that feels right to you, to your body, for your process.



It's been great having you around - I don't know how to express what I am feeling and send it to you . I re-read this e-mail and I can't find the emotions I am trying to express in it.

I am so proud and happy for you Dolly!!!

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