Get out of your current situation! Also, you can't go forward if your head is always turning back. I had a hard time forgiving at one time but I believe it was because I was still around the same negative person which brought back negative memories. I am worst off NOW than I've ever been BUT I am happier than I've been in years. Healthier too! So, it's a choice you have to make. Negativity breeds negativity! Time to cheer up and change your life no matter the situation.