Good, now you need to drop the burritos and other stuff. For education I recommend going to the first pages of this forum, which began four months ago, and reading all of Uny's posts, along with the links she provides. We all need to educate ourselves. I, like most everyone, have learned that many things I used to believe are just not true. This can be disturbing at first but then it becomes liberating to realize that its possible to know what IS true and what can actually create healing and a better life. Like I said before, if you are willing to go through a difficult program the rewards will astound you.