Have I gone crazy?

Hello, I will try to make this short and to the point.
Anotherwords, Long story short.
1. Had pinworms since last september. Unnoficially diagnosed by a GI doctor, just told to take meds.
My symtoms told him I had it, he was 99.9 %sure, didn't need tests.

2. Didn't respond to Drug: Mebendozole 3 rounds since then. Symtoms diminish but just come back.
3. go on parasite cleanses, EXhumaworm! don't really notice any difference, improve a bit, but still feel symtoms of night itch, over time, during day a little itch as well. At this point, I'm devasted.
4. Back to regular MD after visiting others. He wants official tests. 3 ROUNDS OF PINWORM SWABS, AND TAPE ALL COME BACK NEGATIVE. . I did them at night, 1st thing in A.M.also, stool sampling, 3 seperate times.
5. Extreme cleanliness at home, and myself to prevent reinfection. To the point of insanity.
6. I am starting to doubt myself but I know what I feel, and I don't doubt what I have. I have the symtoms, I even have the candida now along with it. Is it possible that my numbers have gone down so it's hard to detect on the tests?? Is Quest Labs unreliable?? I know stool samples are notoriously unreliabel to detect parasites, but I can't believe I didn't pick up anything on the paddle tests. This does surprise me.
7. My ND (natural doctor) wants me to now do a stool sample again to send to a special parasite lab. I'm so tired of chasing around tests. But yet I am not very responsive to treatments, parasite cleanses. But what else could this be?? Is it just the beginning of a LONG PROCESS OF HEALING?? THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT, AND WELL, 4 MONTHS OF BEING A GERMAPHOBIC MANIAC PARASITE CLEANSING AND STILL FEEL LIKE I'M NOT MUCH BETTER?? a Colo-rectal doctor told me I might have Prutitus Ani,or it was an allergy, but to me that made no sense with the feeling of itching i had. I got a microscope to prove her wrong, saw some suspicious stuff, but then again, I'm not a lab person,and I checked with google images of pinworms, still hard to tell depending on maganifications. I think what I saw was a positive identification. but who knows, it was only me that saw it. not lately, but I thought I've seen stuff on the toilet paper, and other stuff.......blah blah blah....
8. Should I just follow my instinct and just keep going with my battle? I'm trying different things, have more obtions when this round is done. I know I'm not crazy, I mean why would a healthy clean normal person like myself feel itch and crawling, wriggling agonizing itch in my rectum?? Yeah, Like I'm going to imagine this stuff up when I never even knew that people could even go through this stuff before?? Not in my wildest dreams....seriously.
4. sorry so long. I am currently on colliadal silver, actually, I ran out. I am trying a RIF machine, but I can't afford to keep that up unless I buy one myslef.
I have Miracle-Mineral-Supplement that I've been afraid to try, and Barefoots DeWormer to do next. Lots of books to buy, flushes to do, and things like that. I guess its' a long long long long road ahead.
5. Noxema has provided me with great relief!! Thanks to Loricalady!!! Ha, she said it cured her, so maybe putting that cheap cream on day and night is the simple answer!! Yes, because of that, I have felt much much better!!!! Have I gone mad or what? Tweet