Oh, sweetheart...Re: call the number!
>>I feel like I have waken from a long slumber and what greets me is not pleasant.
Yeah home of the enslaved. Were we ever free?<<
We were all right where you are. That first cup of coffee is SO strong when we are beginning to awaken from sheepledom. Were we ever free? Yes, I think we were. That's what men like Thomas Jefferson were fighting for, and Will Travis down in San Antonio 50 or so years later. They understood freedom.
I'm going to ask you to do yourself a favor. Over on the debate side of Curezone is a forum called "Conspiracy." Many people think the guys there are on the lunatic fringe. But I am happy to tell you that some of the regular posters there also frequent this forum, because there is an understanding that evolves, and it's all interconnected.
As you have time, read the back posts written by two men in particular. Both men became very dear friends of mine, and were willing to spend a tremendous amount of time teaching me. One man went by the username Ohfor07. He has gone on to other interests, but he was a powerhouse of a teacher. The other man goes by the username DQ1217 on that forum. I do not mean to slight any of the other great guys on that forum, as I am quite fond of many of them, but simply to give you two names to read for starters. It will take you a LONG time to ingest the info presented there, but it's worth the investment, IMHO.
Big, big hugs as you begin this adventure,
Wings