I lose my edge and caved
After 2 years raw and fruitarian I have recently caved in and went back to cooked food and junk,candy,beer,Dr.Pepper. Ive gained 30 lbs in a snap and I feel like crap and also a failure to myself and my kids. My kids have witnessed the last 2 years of watching me become very healthy. But the last 2 years ive experienced raw and fruitarian both and I still just dont know whats right as far as eating.
I have not eaten any meat, I will never eat meat again. And havent for almost 3 years.But I have been eating bad things.Im always overeating to comfort myself.
This is all due to finiancial stress.And other stresses.
I just threw up my hands and gave up.
Now Im back to 190 from 160 and I feel fat and I am tired.
I need to go long this time on this upcoming fast.
My last one I caved at 5 days but for some reason I feel stronger this time and ready to do the fast, WHY? because I think this last couple of weeks I have begun hating food!I really do hate food right now!
Im so tired of food running my life, I feel I need to eat every freakin 5 minutes!
So I am ready. I have distilled water standing by.
I need to refind myself and get back my edge!
I stopped running and everything, basically Ive become a PIECE OF S!
I need to forgive myself and reguvinate (SP).
Right now Im down but I need to get back up dust off and move on.
Rob