Confidence comes through success. Your right, if you can do it just one time, you'll wonder what the big deal was the next time you do it. When I first started, I had to post here everyday (you can read them if you like) to help me get through it. I had a food crises at day three, like a lot of people do, and almost gave in. I suppose I meditated, though not consciously, looking back, that's what I would call it. If you have to post here 10 times a day that's just fine. We are all here to support one another, and are very glad that you are trying to get past your hump, and move on with your life. Blessed Be, and thank you for reaching out for help.