LuellaMay, this is ridiculously overdo but thanks so much for your reply. It really helped me to feel less strange and less despair and hate myself a lot less at that time, put things back into perspective. I went to see a psychiatrist but she tried to prescribe me Zoloft, which I have no interest in taking, and I've given up on psychiatrists and the like, to be honest they kind of frighten me. I've still been struggling with it but your advice has helped a lot, especially about the Sugar - I hadn't really realized how much of it I'd been eating, and having it in large amounts definitely sets me off. It's late here but I just remembered your post and how horrible I felt to have forgotten to reply, I meant to because it really helped me a lot, but everything was sort of a blur then and it slipped right out of my mind. Thanks so much and I'll come back again sometime soon. ~M :)