I forgot to explain what amla paste is. It is in an Ayurvedic stress formulation called Chyawanprash. A 2000 year old recipe containing amla fruit (gooseberry) and many herbs to help lessen stress. Amla is very supportive of the adrenal glands, but in the collective combination of herbs in Chyawanprash (amla paste) it becomes much more powerful. Chyawanprash is the most reverred Ayurvedic medicine for stress. It has really helped me a lot. I buy it from my doctor for $15 but I see a few online sources too. The trauma you have been through will require much nurturing to recover from, both through nutrition and emotional support from those around you. I wish you well and that you will gain your strength in the days ahead.