Update on day 6

I am feeling a bit yucky right now. A sour stomach and my sinuses are draining very heavily. So much that at first it almost choked me, because I wasn't expecting it.

Oh, I noticed that my cheeks looked a bit less fuller then they were a week ago. My high cheek bones are showing more now then they were. I love to show off my high cheek bones because I am very proud of my heritage.

I bought some ketone strips at WalMart. I tested myself and it turned purple which means I have high amounts of ketone in my urines. That means I am burning fat. Now since I am burning fat, I know that detoxing heavily is not far off. I already feeling the horrible, icky feeling when I am starting to detox. But I am showing no outside symptoms, like breakouts. I wonder if I will have any. I have been trying to eat better then I was in 2006.

Oh, I just remember I fasted for about 3 weeks in February of 2007 and I broke out really badly. I was very embarassed about it because I was dating Person A and he saw it, but didn't say anything. I guess I forgot because thinking of him just breaks my heart.

I bought another pedometer and I am wearing it now as well. Yeah! I have walked already 1,485 steps which is 0.70 miles. I need to catch up from this morning.

I have been in a horrible mood today. Just very very down and when I was out, I thought about eating. I really wanted to eat as if it would comfort me. I knew it would only make me feel ill and more miserable since I wouldn't be coming off my fast right. I was tempted, because I am emotional right now, but I didn't. I am a little bit proud of myself for being stronger with my pain, and my grief. I have just been praying to God to give me strength in this.

I just need to keep going if I can. I am just very very down. I don't want to eat. I just want God to talk to me and help with somethings.