Hi Everyone

Hi Everyone...

First I would like to thank you guys for your concern. Thank you for your prayers and your thoughts.

Yeah... I haven't been frequenting this site lately. I've taken a little hiatus of sorts. I think it's good to get away from constant research all of the time. I tend to become so absorbed in research that I sometimes feel that I somehow contribute to my condition by always searching.

Anyways, No I haven't been cured. My eruptions have subsided to a certain degree but I am by no means cured.

My dry skin has actually become a little worse and is very nearly intolerable. This has led me into more Depression which has probably in turn worsened my skin, etc. It is a vicious cycle.

This illness has elicited many questions for me. I question the existance and/or nature of God. I question the meaning of our existance and if it means anything at all. What purpose was there to be born if one cannot escape suffering. So, I am in a bit if an existential crisis at the moment that has been fed by this chronic condition that has not been attenuated by anything.

I am pretty much offcially done going to the doctor that I was seeing. I spent around 4,000 dollars in bills and he did absolutely nothing for me. I originally went to him for leaky guy syndrome and should have stopped after that condition was ruled out. I can't spend $250 per appointment for him to dick around and trying one vitamin after another. I told him that I have been down that road and he seemingly disregarded that this was of any consequence.

I am considering seeing a doctor in New Jersey about Water Fasting but I have read of numerous bad and or unsuccessful responses to extended Water Fasting so I am rather disappointed about this as well. It is probably my only hope though.

I am also considering going to a chiropractor to get my neck worked on- I have a piched nerve that causes me sporadic pain. I have read that nervous system disturbances related to vertebrae can have far-reaching systemic repercussions and have been implicated in acne, eczema, etc. Who knows?? I'm certainly not getting my hopes up- I've been down that road way too many times now. I have learned a very important lesson about this life- it is far better to have never gotten your hopes up at all rather than have them descend from the heights of optimism and crash and burn in the pits of realism. That fluctuation is FAR more painful than a consistent, guarded realism.

Well, I'm done rambling for now.

Thanks again for your concern. I'm praying for you too, although I wouldn't expect any miracles- my prayers don't seem to be worth a damn.