Maya

Hi Maya - Im always so happy when I see your name on the board :-)

I have experienced this also, that I get all tingly and teary eyed when listening to Abraham or even reading something that just touches my IB. I love when that happens.

What a cool experience about the lights going off and on indeed!!

I have been doing your exercises and its been very helpful to overcome my resistance. Though the last couple days I started thinking about what is and my guy too much, trying to figure out how to tell him about my decision in a way that will not make him feel rejected as a person and even trying to help him realize that it is wrong beliefs which effect his life in all ways. I even wrote a letter but didnt send it. I cant be his therapist, its not a turn on LOL. Plus you already said, if he doesnt look for help, he is not ready for it and wont understand what Im talking about.

SO, time to focus on what I want again :-)

Its not so easy for me to avoid thoughts about him and what has been to enter my mind. I will do great for days and then I may see his name on the caller ID and I go upstream. It happened just this morning.

BUT I know I can do this - others have and I have come a long way.

I will keep doing your exercises.

I also ordered Abrahams music CD's so I can play downstream music when Im home to keep my aligned. I dont have them yet, ordered them this week.

Hope all is well with your sons healing?

Love Monica Tweet