Mental health related

For a while now I have these symptoms: lack of motivation in anything- don't want to work, dont want to clean the house, dont want to cook, dont wanna see anyone

oversleeping- unless i have to wake up i could stay in bed all day, even if i dont want to sleep i just want to lie in bed, i understand that i need to get up and do something but i cant make myself do that

i just turned 24. in a way i am aware of the fact that i am not old but everyday i wake up with a tought in my head- that i have not so many years before i will start having wrinkles and that half of my life is already gone, yet i'm not where i want to be, i dont have the money to be where i want to be and probably never will, nor
do i have enough education since i droped out of high school at 15. i am aware that being in my position i should try learning as many things as i can, watching educational channels or reading lots of books...but i just want to sleep and i cant do anything about it.


i also dont have anyone- no family. my mother died, she jumped out of the window, my dad i havent spoken to for about 3 years now, he's only there when i have money, if not he tries to avoid my calls so i kind of stopped calling him. other family members are all dead. my best friends are in the other part of the world, im in malaysia and they're in US. i havent seen them in years and not sure if i ever will.

What is really scary about all this is that I start feeling handicapped. Not having any desire to work is most concerning since its a matter of survival. I'm thinking about getting on medicine, in my situation it is a need. However I don't know what to take and the doctors in maylaysia are not good, few days ago i asked a doctor for light anti-depressant he prescribed me amytriptyline (i believe its the name)and told me take 1 pill 3 times a day. i took one pill, i slept for 24 hours straight. My boyfriend tells me i might not need anti-depressents at all may be its just anxiety related, of course he also says that i may not need either one cause mostly likeky my problem is not Depression or anxiety but laziness and narcissism.

Any ideas on which medicine I need? The only thing I can do is decide myself what to take and give the name of the drug to the pharmacist. So please I appreciate any feedback.

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