i think i know how you're feeling. i've been down that dark road brother. i'm still on it, but i'm getting better. i'm only 17 but i am very experience in natural health, i've been devoted to it for the last 2 years since i've had IBS. i just recently found the answer to my problems and am on the path to recovery.
i know i'll be able to help you to some degree, but there's a lot of explaining to do so i'll need to talk you on aol instant messenger (AIM). if you do not have it, get a screen name at http://www.aim.com
it's quick and easy, my screen name is ---, add it when you've downloaded it and IM me. i know the situation you're in, and back and forth messenging on a forum will not do.
i'm currently doing a liver flush, but tomorrow i'll be able to help you however long you need.