A lot of the posts have stated as a vasectomy being final or final feeling. There's nothing final about it. You can have a vasectomy reversal in the same way you can have a tubal reversed. Also, there's a small chance of pregnancy with vasectomies, very small but the sperm don't need much space do they! :-) I just had to make sure you know you can have it reversed if you change your mind. It also sounds as if you are spinning your wheels mentally and perhaps some therapy might help you.