Re: Day 9 - home stretch!!

Awesome raw rnr, great to see you in better spirits. :) It would be great to have you keep posting your post fast experience in here.

I think what they mean by not restricting is that you are already choosing not to eat unhealthy foods, don't make too many changes all at once. Maybe that's what you did wrong when changing to raw like you said, dropping down to two meals a day when you weren't quite ready for that- if you ever will be. If you worry a lot about food then restricting your meals like that could encourage eating too much at a sitting and then stress thinking how long a wait it is to the next meal! In the wild it's true we would probably only have eaten one meal a day, and I've felt very comfortable on one or two meals at times especially over the last few months, but it's not something to force yourself into. Try eating less more often and see how that goes, hopefully you'll settle into a comfortable routine that will satisfy you better.

I tend to not try anything so difficult as breaking habits or changing diets etc when there is no motivation within me to do so. If I follow the rules of a book for example I have to be pretty well caught up in it and even then I usually just shelve the information until the motivation comes along- then it is relatively easy.

I have myself eaten cooked meals the last three nights running. Healthy meals I have made for my teenage girls but I could have let them make their own. I made meals to satisfy myself and comfort myself in my stress. Nice healthy meals as I said and all with salads added or eaten beforehand but not what I want to be eating in any great amounts as a rule. I even shared a couple of glasses of champagne with them at dinner on New Year's Eve. My younger kids came back from their holiday yesterday and they will actually be here Friday to get their christmas presents. But I still don't know what is happening beyond that, whether I will be expected because of my life choices to just be a part-time baby-sitter father at best, or whether I will be 'allowed' to become an equal parent again. These are the things that gnaw at my soul, my whole life is in her hands. Ugh.

All I want to do now food wise is eat raw again for today and tomorrow at the most and start fasting again asap. The healthy cooked food causes little discomfort but is far heavier on my belly than raw food and feels like it is moving through my body very sluggishly, which no doubt it is in comparison to the raw foods.

It's good to hear about other raw diets, I've been noting them down as they've been mentioned lately and will certainly add them to my reading lists in the near future. It would be nice if some of this stuff was available at our library, I did a search for raw food and fasting a few weeks ago and came up with nothing! When I get around to it I'll be making an official request that those omissions be rectified!

Take care, and good luck with the new way of eating this month. :)

Andrew.