day 8

HI

Thanx everyone for you kind words and advice...

No detox today either...just major EMOTIONAL - I don't know if it's because I have to go back home in 6 days..I am thinking about it and it's depressing....
I don't know if its because I have to end this in 2 days...
I am being a total BITCH...
my poor hubby..I feel depressed and critical...
I'm at a resort and I just look around and cannot help looking at people in dusgusting ways and thinking very mean thoughts...the things I see them put in thier mouths....they are like 300 pounds and eating ice cream, chips, cookies...drinking beer ..what the hell are they thinking??
I hope they cannot read my disgust in my face....
I know It's awful, I should not judge anyone....I don't want to be like this, but I can't help it...I know that we are all connected and bla bla bla...but I am sorrounded by cows....how can they not care about themselves???
I JUST DO NOT GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Sorry I just had to unload that....its like I judge everyone, but I'm my own worst judge..I gotta COOL IT, and usually I'm not like this..well, not this bad,,,,usually I want to take them home and help them, now i am just grossed out!
AWFUL huh??

SO, I am at 123lbs @ 5'8"...I am learning a bit about my body and its response to this fast..my fist water fast...I am convinced that no matter how much w eight I lose that I will always have a bit of a protruded abdomen...must be my colon (yes, I've done numerous Colon Cleanses and hydro therapy), I learned that unless I maybe Water Fast for 30 days..(NEVER) I will not lose my celulite, no matter how thin I get. I learned that YAY I will not die drinking only water..that I do prefer juice fasting however...I am so BORED of not tasting!!

Maybe some of my bitchiness may also be my fear of eating again, going back to binging until I cannot breath...
I don't know...

anyone have any experiences like mine? please share!