Hi rawmr,
I can relate to feeling that disgust.. many years ago when I first went raw I couldn't believe what went into people's mouths and with what they filled their shopping trolleys.. made me very judgemental indeed... I was younger then!!!
But then I realised they were not my responsibility, even though we are all connected bla, bla, bla ( I loved how you wrote that!). I just set out to be a good example because that's all you can do really. Most people aren't ready for changes to lifestyle. I've discovered that many people can't think for themselves.. eating like their parents did, voting like their parents did... perhaps we are blessed with an inate curiosity that drives us to explore different ways of being, of living, of eating.
Anyway, my thoughts are with you 'cos I 've been there, but you will get over it and the people of this world will again be humans that you can relate to ...and perhaps you can again assist them with your knowledge and example.
I'm just reading a book called "Eating Less:Say goodbye to Overeating" by Gillian Riley. It's a fascinating read and I encourage you to borrow it from your library if you are a binger or overeater.

What I love about fasting is that it keeps me in the moment, nothing else to do but "be" whilst my body does the work.
All the best to you Rawmr,
BlueGreen x

I know exactly what you mean. It's so much common sense to eat healthily, raw especially and the more you do it the more it seems ludicrous that people continue to eat what they do. I usually don't look at individuals with any distaste though, I more stew over the bigger problem of our society being stuck in such a rut and being helpless to do anything about it. Healing all ills was one of those things we were expected to wish to be able to accomplish when we grew up- you know like being an astronaut, a policeman, discovering the cure to all diseases! Here we have the closest thing to that the world is likely to know in our lifetimes at least but we're treated as weirdo's and freaks, never to be believed.

This year under more stress than is usual over christmas I am glad I avoided seeing my family hog down the inevitable beast feast. It was assumed I was just being my normal anti social self though, not disgusted at their eating flesh and other disgusting tidbits. Normally I can pretty much ignore it unless someone shoves it in my face or brings up the subject.

There's this girl at the local supermarket who has been chatting to me over the last few months and made a point yesterday of commenting on my losing so much weight. She was very excited about my success and was bursting to congratulate me it seems. You should have seen her face drop when I told her how I'd done it though. She recovered quickly but the rest of the conversation was a very cleverly hidden polite saving herself from giving away her real reaction. She asked a couple of polite questions but ignored the answers or chopped them off somehow without managing to be rude. Personally it didn't bother me so much I could have chosen to be less specific in telling her how I'd lost the weight but it was interesting, if depressing, to see such a response on someone who started out being so excited about my losing the weight.

I also tried to explain my Depression being connected to knowing, for example, about the effectiveness of fasting but being unable to help anyone learn about it. She missed the point completely and just thought I wanted to convert people (which is her way being similar a born again christian). It is just frustrating to see something so obviously, and have facts to back up your opinions but to be faced with total disbelief and often antagonism for those opinions. It's like the whole world is brainwashed, and thinking like that it's no wonder I'm crazy! ;)

And my life is up in the air at the moment. What happens from here on in is up to my ex wife and whether she can accept me as an equal parent or not. This is a particularly nasty position to be in, she has the power to take away my fatherhood and keep my children from me and has been abusing that power these last six weeks. I have managed to keep fasting and eating raw food in this time but it has been stressful as you could imagine. Mostly I've only been able to fast for three or four days and eat raw for about the same or less before starting again. I have still been losing weight doing this but as you can imagine not very much, it's more just consolidating what I have lost already. And because I'm breaking the fasts due to stress I usually indulge more than I should in the raw food as well.

So while I'm more concerned about getting my children back than my fasting or keeping my eating under control I certainly understand your being worried about overeating, even the raw food which is easier to control as a rule. I hope your new diet helps, I think eating lots of greens would be a good way to go for consuming bulk and filling yourself up without overdoing the calories. I often do this with lettuce, wrapping up other veggies making raw "soft lettuce taco's" and find it a comfortable and tasty way to fill up without overdoing it.

Good luck! I hope you can wind down a bit from how you're doing now and enjoy the rest of your holiday.

Take care,

Andrew.