Re: negative thoughts..humbling?

Crystal C..

I find that I get so many thing more readily when there are no roadblock emotionally or mentally.Say with relationships and the opposite sex,I have attracted to me so many favorable situations and meeting the right people but I have so many issues from my past holding me back and arise during those times its like ..doh!

even with the right outcome,if one isn't ready to handle them or open to receive it so to speak,it doesn't work out in your favor.I am hopeful though and more then optimistic that once the smoke clears,my issues or whatever are taken care of or at least under wraps..I will be more then happy with the results/outcome.

For instance..with my latest and greatest job.For months and months at a time,I worked and quite like about a dozen jobs,working,not liking it and quitting lol.I kept on writing,kept on believing and kept on thinking..I will find the right job,the right place and make good money.I quit because I knew there was something better and something I can handle and enjoy,not only that but this job right now was sort of an accident.I had originally put it off like a few times,slacked on interviews,did a half assed job on the requirements,and even contemplating quitting on so many occasions even when having it..though only to my surprise,a few months later it turned out be the best thing for me and an awesome environment (though I am still grumpy most of the time lol) it's like I didn't even have to try nor even want it initially but its like my psyche made the sub-conscious choice or whatever happened for me to end up where I am at right now..not sure if it was all the writing,visualizing or what but it happened.

I find this happens alot actually..the things I really want,when I got them..I got bored.But the things I know are best for me but didn't really want them,though it took some time to get..turned out to make me the happiest lol..as if by mistake or just happened out of the blue..go figure.

I love this stuff lol but I have a feeling it's not so cut and dry,black and white or as literal as 'you get what you think about 100% of the time',because I have thought about some pretty horrible things before and thank god it hasn't occurred.

*looks around*
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