We're not really big on probing into the past. We just want you to understand that you have a collage of vibrations going on within you. And while part of you is wanting to be eager about something, there's a part of you that's got the brakes on. Because there was a time in your life when it felt like everything was sort of out of control. And so then you decided that you were gonna take control.
And we think in the "taking of control", you've limited the Universe's ability to yield to you all kinds of fantastic things.