.....wow none of you are really helpful. you guys are all very judgemental. And all I can do is laugh b/c you come on here for help, now the older ladies on here have, I'll give them that. Maybe it wasn't the help I wanted but it was help. It made me realize some things and think it over and really process it. Like how much I love him and want to make the relationship work. But then there's this. No, I'm not martyr. I'm a human. My boyfriend saw his friend got shot in head, saw the head coming off of his wound. But it seems that I am just a young girl to complain to you, not a girl in pain or confused or thinking about the future. Just a young martyr as you called me.......thanks......