help, i am scared

I have been reading through all of the pages on this forum - I am wondering why some people are acting like hiv is not a serious condition and that it is nothing when people do get sick and have different symptoms - things that people who are hiv - don't usually get?
I hope that you all don't think I am nuts, but about 6 years ago I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease. Well, I think all of the pain was caused by parasites.
The last part of Feb or first of Mar, I allowed a man to kiss me - well, he slobbered on me and in my mouth - it was disgusting. Three days later I felt strangely nauseous. I immediately thought it was hiv - but thought, you don't get it from kissing - I searched and searched the web and pretty much it says you cannot get it from kissing unless there is blood involved, which there wasn't. Well, I tried to just put it out of my mind. I am married however, and a few weeks later my husband complained of nausea and the next week my youngest son who is 14 also complained of nausea and muscle weakness in his legs. I panicked - I immediately started us on mega doses of Olive Leaf and had them start taking the vitamins I had always taken for my Crohn's - nac, ala, fish oil, chromium, cod liver oil. I also read about coconut oil on earthclinic, I increased the ala from 50 mg to 600mg - well, there went all sleep out the window and along came all sorts of twitches and jerking movements. So I stopped everything, hoping it would all go away, it is now almost Dec and some of the twitches have subsided. We now have red eyes - I have never had red eyes. I am so scared and feel so guilty and so stupid. I found Hulda Clark s web site and Lorraine Days also and both of them say you can get it from saliva - why why why doesn't anybody else acknowledge this danger?
I have lost over 20 lbs - after reading H.C. website and about the parasites I started us on some herbs - the parasites I have are getting very aggressive - I can feel them biting me and moving around. I am terrified.
I contacted someone from aliveandwell who has been hiv+ from many years and they think that I am crazy and will not help me - they will give me no advise. I desperately need some advise. Please help.