From The Biggest Loser On Curezone

Hello, I am "hopstinko", the biggest loser on Curezone. I have been here far too long and its time to leave. (according to Celcius/Strider.)I am sick and diseased, mentally ill, deceived by Satan and a danger to everyone on Curezone. I am also a hypocrite and a liar, claiming to be a Christian, but just deceiving people. Despite my education and years of reading and research I am pretty stupid; educated beyond my intelligence. (according to Moreless). Maybe this is why I am a waste of space and serve no real purpose on the earth. (the Barefoot Herbalist's opinion of a childless person)

All this name calling hurts. It also hurts to see people I have come to like and respect slinging mud and resorting to childish name calling. It serves no purpose on this site. It does show a lack of compassion and support. It creates a feeling of gross negativity and unpleasant atmosphere for all who happen upon the threads that degenerate to the lowest level as the one's below have.

I know I am far from innocent myself, when hurt I become angry and lash out too. I do understand the emotions that arise when feelings are hurt or pride is damaged. However, I know that I am not really that kind of person. I feel ashamed of the times I have lowered myself to the level of those who called me such hurtful and hateful names. I wish I could undo every post where I gave in to my lower nature. I apologize to those of you I have hurt or insulted. It was wrong of me to react with anger and lash out trying to even out the score.

I think it is time for me to go away from Curezone for a while. Owen left this place because of all the negativity, and now he says he does not even miss Curezone, although we sure miss his gentle wisdom and excellent advice. I can't begin to compare myself to Owen, but I do hope I have done a little good during the last five years. Now, I need to find a place of healing, love and compassion. It is not at this place right now. I hope it will return in time. No single individual, or forum or protocol is worth destroying this wonderful place because of petty bickering and inflated egos. I'll check in here in a few weeks or months, I pray that soon a sense of peace will return and Curezone will once again a place that embraces its mission statement of Educating Instead Of Educating.