Adrenal Fatigue and thinking of killing myself

It's 5 AM here and I haven't slept at all despite my efforts. In fact, I haven't had restorative decent sleep in months, I have constant bouts of fatigue, brain fog, weakness (im not able to workout anymore without feeling rundown), overall the quality of my life sucks and I am a shell of the person I once was. Doctors and the people around me don't seem to realize just how bad and severe this is, I'm barely able to function anymore. The worst part is there is no clear cut cure for this, it seems as if it is a permanent condition that may slightly improve over time, but never fully goes away so my life is seemingly changed forever at 22 years of age. I don't want to live for the rest of my life like this I can't do it I just can't it's pure and utter torture and suffering on a daily basis and I just can't do it anymore. If I were older and had my youth and perhaps a wife and kids to live for I could be more content with my situation but sadly I will never get back the time that is going to be lost. My future that I had always dreamed of and looked forward to is filled with misery and sadness. If this doesnt improve within the next year or so I'm not going to able to go on. These past few months have been the worst of my life, and I would easily just end my misery now and save myself from the years of torture that lie ahead of me, but the only thing that keeps me going is knowing what it would do to my poor mother and family if I were to follow through with it. I don't know how some of you can deal with having this and being sick for 20+ years and still go on with your lives, but that isnt for me I want to be at peace. I'm in tears as I'm writing this right now. Tweet