Mirenaized? very scarry

Hello
I had the Mirena taken out today 11/12
I looked up what levonorgestrel-releasing intrauterine system on the National Institute of Health and I found study that the 2nd fact the woman where hospitalized for suicidal issues amongst serious mood swings and irritable...I wrote them a desciptive letter and told them to have them reconsider the reasons why woman should conside this and truly what the affects are...my gyn wanted to put me on Paxol today I said NO I just want to have this out and to have a simple process of illimination to finding out why I feel the way I do with anxiety and forgetting to mention that I have 3 children under 3.5 but still the thoughts I was having was at times about to put me over the edge...I feel better still wondering when I'm going to have a outburst...my husband looked at me funny a few times and said that hes waiting for me to yell at the kids and I feel as though the moment the damn thing was taken out I felt like rejoicing . the past year I had it in I have been so unkind to my kids spanking them for reasons that was like what the hell is my problem?....I would have bad thoughts about hurting myself and of course when the doctor heard that she immediately wanted to put me on drugs but I feel as though I am going to take my time and not be so hasty with jumping to a drug that I'm going to have to get off of and I'm not into that process. so in my life at this time I feel like a better person for making this decision...