Re: I have lost all hope....

I have struggled in a similar way, tho maybe not as extreme as you. There is hope ... not from this world but from beyond death ... Jesus Christ. He rose from the dead and lives beyond death and is the Source and Creator of Life. He can and wants to free you and instill true Life and Liberty in you, and have a relationship with you. I'm not just preaching a religion at you, but Reality and Relationship. I've known others and know of others He has totally freed from pain, apathy, depression, anger, drugs; He has even set free from hard drugs, addiction to cutting & burning themselves. I have witnessed supernatural physical healings as well. Jesus wants the best for you and what your going thru sucks, as you said "evil."

I have worked in the mental health field and in education, including in a men's prison as an educator. I also have education in philosophy and am way into natural remedies and healing. I have also deeply studied Creation Science vs. Evolution. My strong belief is that I, nor you, are an "accident" of the Cosmos ... but a person created with purpose and a destiny ... seek it and you will find it. Once you find it, you will find motivation more powerful and compelling than you can now know ... for it comes from not within your limited self, but the infinite Source that created the universe.

You have a Creator who loves you and wants to free ... if you will seek Him! If you have a Bible, read Mark 5:1-20, and then the book of John.

If you would like to discuss any of this feel free to email me.