Re: question on psychological projection??
I think your intuition is working beautifully, Rygar.
And the repetitive nature of your thoughts simply indicates that you haven't yet completely recognized what you prefer...romantic, weak-in-the-knees, astonishing love.
That's a tough one to swallow, because a person feels so darn vulnerable. But, being able to allow the scariness, in trade for the life-changing glory of it all, perhaps, is the best sign of maturity...which is what it takes to handle real love.
You are getting there just fine.
Once, when drinking beer at the bar in a pub, a young fellow told me of how he cared for his children and baby for three years, after his wife ran away to another city.
He did everything for his children, until the day he realized that a man comforts with a pat, and a woman with a stroking motion.
He put his babes in the car, and drove them to his former wife.
Now, his ex-wife lived two doors away, and the children were in and out of both houses as freely as the breezes...and happy.
After that he told me that a man gets far more pleasure from giving a woman a rose, than she does in receiving it.
Talk about maturity!
He felt good about his decisions...everything had turned out just fine. I can imagine that good things happened to him from then onward.
You are one of the ones who will make it, I predict.
F.