Hi George,

thank you for your email. I feel as though you're right - I have lost touch with myself. It started happening some time ago, and I can pinpoint exactly when, suddenly my energy began lessening, my enthusiasm for life went down, I felt unloved and lonely, and began questioning what life was all about in a big way (because it felt so empty of meaning). I was searching for soul - in a hectic city life that felt as though it had none.

Soon after that I began developing anxiety and panic attacs. Then, a continuos pain in my solar plexus. The doctor prescribed PPI's for indegestion. I was on them for a year, but by doing research I have managed to be pill free for 2 months now. I am no longer working, and I don't want to work right now. So I dedicate my time to gentle persuits, being by myself, and reading about diet and detox in regards to my condition, which was recently diagnosed by a ciro/kineso to be hiatus hernia and IBS. All 4 of my stomach valves are stuck open, and as a result I am following this strict alcalising diet.

I believe that my emotions are of course linked to my physical condition, and my anxiety has manefest in a physical symptom. When I try and meditate I either fall asleep or just spend 20 minutes 'thinking'. I try to 'switch off the thinking' but am rarely successful. The one time I did, I had these sort of waves wash over me, and then an incredible tingly energy rise up through me.

I try to think positively - but I guess I don't really belive myself, and most of the time I am incredibly hard on myself "I'm never good enough, I'm a failure" etc, etc.

My questions is how do I even begin to address all these issues, especially the deep rooted thinking patterns. I want to, believe me, I just don't know how to!

I did the onlne 'Whats my dosha?' test - and it says I'm Vata

Thanks,
K