No. You have an illness, similar to an addiction. Your family and friends are taking care of you to make sure you can get healthy again. Purging is NOT healthy, it can and will seriously damage your body. I know you want to purge, but you must resist and stay strong. You are RECOVERING. You do not give a recovering drug addict drugs just because they want them. Similarly, you can not purge just because you want to.

On Bulima:
http://healthyplace.com/Communities/Eating_Disorders/peacelovehope/bulimia.html


Show this to your family/friends:
http://healthyplace.com/Communities/Eating_Disorders/peacelovehope/rules.html


Dangers of having an eating disorder and purging:
http://www.something-fishy.org/dangers/dangers.php


Educate yourself and your family/friends about your disorder, so you can better understand and be aware of what you're feeling and why, and they can understand how to help you in your recovery.

Hi Cold Blue Angel,

I'm so very sorry for the difficulty you're going through. It must be awful to feel out of control and hounded and secretive and miserable about your body image. My heart goes out to you.

I think there is a plan that may help you be both healthy and skinny - in dealing with my own weight issues, I learned that being out of control came partly from physical addictive reactions to foods - cravings, etc., plus pressure and body image issues... the idea to just be comfortable mentally with being fat is crazy! who is comfortable with that? I started doing kimkins and I recommend it SO HIGHLY because it gets rid of cravings and appetite, and made me feel in control of my food issues because of the natural appetite reduction. I didn't feel the cravings and the desire to binge in the afternoons the way I would before. And you lose weight fast. If you tried this and you didn't have to worry about your friend/boyfriend watching you because you didn't need to purge and you were losing weight... wouldn't that be great? I don't know if you have other psychological reasons for binging, but if it is based on weight gain and cravings, kimkins might help. Google search it if you want to try.

I really hope you find the help and the PEACE that you need and deserve.

Much Love ~Ruth

Hi

I´m so sorry about your situation, I have had the same once and it was terrible. Even if you don´t care now, you should know that it´s very dangerous for you body to purge. It seem I have partly become seriously ill due to purging many years ago. You need some professional help, can you perhaps find a bulimia support group first of all in your town? In my case I didn´t know it by then, but I gained weight easily because of parasite infection. I am now doing parasite cleansing with herbs and it takes much of the cravings away. It´s important to stop the cravings I think which can be really bad. I still don´t know why "we" get cravings in all cases but for me it was parasite infecion most definately. I think I might have gotten infected by my horse who was sick all the time, but have no definate proof of that. Another way to get rid of cravings is to keep the blood Sugar levels normal, meaning eating at regular intervals preferably 4-5 times a day.

Never try to starve yourself, you wont loose weight on that anyways, especially not when you have cravings. As a person who purge you probably know all about calories in the food already, but it´s still great if you eat lots of fruit and vegetables to each meal. The fruit calories I think is nothing to worry about. I know weight watchers and others consider the calories in fruit the same as the calories in potatoe etc, but it´s not the same. You also need to get good oils in the system. Many people who purge thinks that oils are really bad, but oils are an important nutrient for your body. Flaxseed oil is great for salads and hemp oil I have seen recommended as well. Fish liver oil is great too. But you need a professional to work on your case though.

Also for the mental part you need a professional, to help you deal with your personal anger, fear etc. For me, I was just angry but didn´t know about it, cause I wasn´t allowed to show expressions or attitude at home. Also, the media plays a part in making us bulimic, at least for the younger girls, so you have to overcome seeing pictures everywhere on skinny perfect people. You probably know that the pictures are professionally redone in layout programs etc as well.

You can get seriously ill later on after being bulimic, it´s very dangerous. You have to find a way to get rid of the cravings in case you are really eating copius amounts of food, otherwise you will never stop purging. Your family is just worried about you and don´t know what to do.

Mia