Wow!! First thing, forgive yourself and your brother. Then if might be wise to juice fast for a few days. Smoking + meat + beer are so damaging to the body!! You might want to do a heavy metal cleanse too (from the BBQ). Make sure to drink lots of water!

If you break down only when around your brothers, it would probably be iny our best interest to avoid going there. You can still see him... but maybe at your house instead. :)

If you're gonna indudlge ..do it right but don't do it half assed.
Looks like you got it right,I would'nt be soo hard on yourself,you were having fun and enjoying yourself. It's not the end of the world. If you were to say,'yeah,then he offered me some crack..I took a few hits,then he offered me a two way with sarah and her girlfriend..so I said 'okay' and did them both raw'
then there might be a problem..why wasn't I invited?!
lol
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beef ribs and beer FTW!

Boozer… not to throw a wet blanket on things here, but in your list of things you did at your brother’s house, the one that caught my attention was…

“Then when offered a drink, I accepted, which lead to about ten veyr strong mixed drinks”

That my friend may be a bigger problem than eating a few ribs or smoking a couple of cigarettes.

You came here, to an Alcoholics Anonymous site to tell that little story. Why? Why not tell it on a vegan site? Here is my guess as to why you are here. You have done this before, You have been offered a drink before and ended up drinking another ten. I suspect this sort of thing has happened more than once.

And you are scared and confused as to why a fairly level headed guy like yourself would go off the deep end so easily. You may even suspect that there is something wrong with you as it pertains to alcohol. When you drink, you tend to drink too much. Once you start, stopping just never seems like a good idea.

If that is the case, welcome to the club.

Again this is an AA site, along with your organic juice and oatmeal, try throwing a meeting into the mix. Tell those people your story of Bar B Q at your brother’s


Your friend on this long strange road trip to the good stuff,
Richard

Boozer, have you ever considered taking up chain-smoking and drinking heavily sweetened organic coffee? Boy howdy, by the grace of god....