may be way off, but it sounds like your ex may have done some things that were not so kosher to you. is this the case? if no, others may be able to give you some direction.

Hi there!

I have had similar dreams and I feel that it was my body's way of telling me not to eat certain foods. This was correct for me. How is your diet right now? Are there foods you're eating that you feel are actually 'making you sick'?

Or...maybe there is something inside you (it's dark in there, remember!) that needs to come out into the light of day so you can take a better look at it.

Black tar and white cloth? Interesting. Black and White (bad/good imperfect/perfect etc etc) - do you have judgement about the foods you eat? Or would you say you are a black and white kind of person?

There are lots of options with this dream...maybe one of the above things clicked...then you can simply follow the thread and see where it takes you!

Tracey

We use phrases such as "choke on those words" when mentioning lies or falsehoods being uncovered, being "all choked up" when overwhelmed with a lot of emotions, "choking" in fear, etc. We "choke back" our words when we should speak out but can't or don't. Also, pipes and passage ways can be 'choked up' when clogged or obstructed and the phrase 'choked the life out of' is metaphorically used to mean some one who is slowly being worn down by hard circumstances or situations.

Do any of those associations ring any bells? Try thinking of many different areas of your life, from friendships to work to health to relationships to spiritual or emotional issues - just run through a typical week and see if there's any area that may be 'choking' you or that you may be 'choking'. Is there something 'obstructing' you?

For instance: I had quite a few choking dreams when I was working for a megacorp that was just NOT a good or healthy job for me. Not only were any suggestions not listened to, especially any "out of the box" ones, they were discouraged, making us lowly peons fear for our jobs if we spoke out. I was living a lie trying to work there as well as feeling 'gagged' AND slowly having the 'life' choked out of me. No wonder I had so many choking dreams during that time!

Your ex-boyfriend sat outside tapping. Is he possibly your ex because you felt he wasn't quite there enough for you, or because you or he didn't quite "let himself in" enough? Or maybe you wanted him to 'rescue' you but, of course, he couldn't? (We all ultimately are responsible for our own growth and release.) Just some random thoughts to maybe help turn some wheels .... I may be waaaaay off since I don't know the situation. But *you* do. =)