All the best to you! You can do it - set your goals realistically and each time you get close to them add on a new goal.

Since January I lost over 20 lbs - I started with a fast, changed my diet, did another fast and am continuing to drop weight. My weight was always still acceptable (had a BMI which was still in the normal range) however I was unhappy with myself. I had difficulties looking at myself in the mirror. I have another 4 lbs to go, then I am at my personal ideal weight and I intend to keep it!

My first goal was to lose 10 lbs, then another 5, then another 5 and that's how I got where I am.

While you are fasting consider what you would like to do after the fast. Have a plan for when you are done. That is the key to getting where you want!

Bless you for doing something about your situation. So many people would do nothing and get worse. Don't worry so much about losing a certain number of pounds as much as maintaining a steady progress.
I think, from reading your letter, that you are probably scared to exercise, but do some every day to supplement your food-related efforts. Even if you only walk down a few steps, rest and walk back up on your first effort, that is the place yo will start. Before you know it, with consistent effort, you will attain your goal and feel so-o-o-o much better.
Best of luck. A large universe of souls is behind you.

Alienlady -

First off, congratulations on a new chapter of life. Life is a gift - there are no dress rehearsals, we have today to enjoy. A bit about myself and journey - I am in my thirties, morbidly obese, diabetic, hypertension, and suffered from terrible restless leg syndrome (terrible symptoms that made my muscles ache - had to constantly move - when I prayed to God to help me lose weight, I think I over shot my prayers) :-) I learned about Master-Cleanse two years ago when my step-father passed over 10 stones from MC. He was so constipated and ill prior to the cleanse. He was a different person after the Master-Cleanse experience. Even being Asian (besides vaccines, I never took 'western' medicine until I was nine years old - all Chinese herbs from the Chinese herbal 'doctors'), I was a terrible skeptic to all of this. Two years ago, I tried it for three days. A year ago, I tried it for four days. I have an emotional attachment to food so I had a hard time staying on the Master-Cleanse - I wasn't all that hungry, just wanted to eat. Food was my friend - it didn't talk back, criticize, etc. and it was a comfort (until I ate too much and was emotionally upset at myself). As for exercise, I've tried for years to convince my doctor that shopping and talking (as fast as I talk) are cardio exercises. Needless to say, I was in sad shape.

My husband has attempted to convince me numerous times to try the MC. I did it this time because I was so miserable with being sick and to be honest, to shut him up. I didn't think this was going to work at all physically (it was too weird to work) so I approached it from a spiritual journey - to fast and pray. I worked during this time and having people eating around me was tough, but having my husband on the other end of the phone encouraging me (driving me nuts) was helpful. Instead of looking at 10 days (and counting down to when I can eat), I tried to approach it from one day at a time. I didn't last the 10 days that I wanted to, but 7 was good. I was very skeptical about cleansing, sludge, and all the other words you may read on this site. Now I know what people are talking about - I had to personally experience it to understand - I am now a true believer in the benefits of MC and liver flush. I did lose some weight, but more importantly, I gained back some health. I no longer am in daily discomfort. My stomach has shrunk so I no longer eat huge meals - it has made it so much easier to eat smaller portions more often which means I feel like I'm eating all the time. I used to love the grease and fat of fast foods. Now my body, for the first time in more years than I can remember, craves fresh fruits and vegetables (emotional response - yuck!...mental response - I'm blessed to be healthier). I think when people talk about having a 'plan' at the end of your cleanse, they are talking about having steps to not go back to the poor diet, depression, and vicious cycle that too many women (and men) know about these days. For me, I chose to read the book "Body for Life for Women" while doing the MC and had a healthy plan to follow after the MC. It has helped tremendously - my mind and emotions were prepared to try something new and it has kept me from stepping back in time (at least too far back). I'm not promoting a book, just giving you an idea of having a 'plan' to move towards after your cleansing journey. My prayers are with you - keep going, one day at a time. God Bless You and may you prosper in health and happiness!