kkuznet,
I've had at least 70% of the "symptoms" on that list. The appetite and sleep problems are a result of depression, and so is the moodiness. Your grandiosity is a subconscious defensive attempt to compensate for your self-persecution. How can you be "respectful of boundaries" AND "combative"? How can you have "relationship stability" in "isolation" and loneliness? One of the effects of Depression (as I know it), is that TIME is not as meaningful as it should be (one self-persecuting day is the same as the next), so of course there's going to be memory problems. These are not all separate things that are wrong with you, they are all effects of depression. If I understood correctly, you still have the alcohol/drug habit. That's not helping the hallucination/delusional thing you know. I never had the problem of drugs/alcohol since my teens, but I probably would have "pulled the plug" if I didn't have any vices, so I smoke cigarettes. Cigarettes aren't healthy, but, to me, they're better than suicide, and they would also be better than your alcohol/drugs. Cigarettes are not an "escape from reality", they help me deal with reality (they are my friends).

I always (since he was little) suspected that something is wrong, it was never confirmed, but he was never tested thoroughly. He is under tremendous stress for the last 2 months, unfairly fired from work, depressed etc.
During his severe Depression he had hallucinations, was space out and numb and memory loss. He is better now on the surface, but who knows what is inside. He is going to therapy now.
One of the main issues he always had: blaming other people for his problems, refusing to take responsibility or change himself. Also getting very mad when people not doing things his way, spends hours arguing, trying to prove his rightness (very inflexible).
Can't just move on when problems can't be resolved, gets very vengeful, remembers only bad things from the past. Memory problems - remembers things which didn't happen.


appetite - decrease

sleep patterns - (too much or too little, trouble falling or staying asleep) It varies, mostly troubles falling asleep and wake up

very early waking - NO

sexuality - desire, ability to function, appropriateness, etc, -???

moods - depressed, anxious, manic, mood swings, flat, etc.
Dpressed, mood swings: getting too excited, but when things don't go his way, gets mad

hallucinations - seeing, hearing, smelling things that others do not - he had it recently for the first time (2 weeks), now it passed

delusions - paranoia, grandiosity, persecution
Well, he thinks that some people manipulated the girl he loves, that's why they are not together, while
I think she might not like him that much. He is very much in love with her although there was nothing between then - just small talk in coffee room.

ability to care for self - basic hygiene - He is fine, but his room is a mess.

drug/alcohol use - past or present In the past drug use. Doesn't do it for 2-3 years

stress level - past or recent traumas, major life changes
Biggest stress- loss of a job and a girl (who wasn't his girl to start with)

age appropriate level of functioning - school, work, stability, etc. He is a good worker. Very focused, maybe too much.

cognitive function - memory (short and long term), rational, logical
thought, judgement, clear speech,
concentration, reasoning, etc. He is logical in his perceptions, which I find not always right/correct. Thus his reasoning based on wrong perception. His speech could be fast and "mumbling" sometimes - which doesn't make sense sometimes, and we ask him to repeat slowly and coherently

interactions with others - relationship stability, isolation, combative,
respectful of boundaries, etc. Difficult to make friends, he is trying to dominate and control. But thinks that he is nice and people use it. (he is generally nice, honest, doesn't take advantage of people, but if he wants he might tell people what he is really thinking about them/their behaviour and thus make enemies andfeel like a victim, because he told the truth and people can't handle it. I think that quite often this truth is the way he thinks it is. But I can't convice him. He is very inflexible.

Can't be very mad and threatening. Didn't hit anyone, just walls
miscellaneous - unusual habits, ritualistic behavior, obsessions, suicidal Not suicidal, said had these thoughts, but decided not to.
Likes routine - wake up, go to work, come home.
Had very poor image of his appearance, when someone comments how he looks thinks people are laughing at him and getting very very mad - we couldn't reasure him. It has passed recently since he is getting lots of attention from girls (he is very good looking).
behavior, self-mutilation, motivation, etc.
Not talkative at parties, behaves as if he is bored. But is very needy - wants to have friends desperately and a girlfriend. He is very lonely. No self mutilation.
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The degree and duration is also important, as is the functioning during chiildhood...anything peculiar? difficulty interacting with others? etc.
He was never a happy kid, always problems, he is not hiding them - usually dumps them on me, but not listening to advice, likes to blame me for his unhapiness.
hope you will be able to get some picture.
thanks
mills

It looks like you've assumed, as I did (read my posts above) that kkuznet is asking about herself. We've taken it out of context. Read some of her posts below...the diagnosis is for her son - and it sounds serious.

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