I find a lot of comfort on this site and I would like to help others find a little comfort as well.

I want to tell you something funny and most ironic.

My whole life I developed this PHOBIA of parasites, it seemed to have come out of no where. I remember having random conversations with people explaining to them that I would just DIE if I ever knew I had some kind of worm or creature living inside of me. Even the mere thought of it brought indescribable anxiety and stress.

When this whole journey began, I realized I did have parasites and many of them! A Infestation to be bluntly exact, and to make it much worse in my HEAD OF ALL PLACES. i feel them slither through my sinuses and throat up to my brain on a daily basis. I was on the brink of INSANITY and many times considered being admitted to a psychiatric ward, though i KNEW it wouldnt be of much help at all! And began to live my life in FEAR of the STIRRINGS.

I just couldnt mentally handle the SLITHERING, BITING, PIERCING, WRITHERING,SQUIRMING DAILY, ESPECIALLY in my THROAT, SINUSES AND HEAD! and this made the condition MUCH WORSE, becoming honestly and sadly seriously and literally suicidal.

I would SCREAM out loud and CRY and lay in bed depressed for hours.

I even got to the point where I didnt want to treat myself any longer, and halfheartedly wished that I could forget they were ever there, feed them what ever they want, ACCEPT DEFEAT and just accept the health problems that come along with them.

I know this is not the correct thinking, but I am SURE the people who are experiencing an INFESTATION may have the same fears and suicidal thoughts as I.

The point is people, I continue to read posts of people who are AFRAID of their parasites, just as I. How can you fight and WIN a battle against something you are AFRAID of?

Let's be REAL, a parasitic infestation IS MADDENING, IT IS DEVASTATING, MORE THAN depressing and perhaps one of the most horrifying things that I have ever experienced in the entire 24 years that I have been alive.

Can I be honest and say that I still am suicide? Can I be honest and say that i would rather DIE than live this way? Can I really be honest and say that my life force is drained, I am heavy hearted and find NO PLEASURE in ANYTHING any more and feel like I AM ALREADY DEAD?

A WORD OF HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am saying this to you as I am saying it to my own self.

WE CAN WIN. THIS IS YOUR BODY, YOU ARE NOT MERELY A "HOST". YOU ARE A HIGHLY SPIRITUAL BEING WITH CAPABILITIES BEYOND EVEN YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING. YOU MUST NOT BE AFRAID!!!! IF YOU KNEW YOUR OWN POWER, YOU WOULD NOT BE AFRAID ANY LONGER!

THESE CREATURES ARE LIKE DEMONS. THEY BRING A DEEP DARKNESS INSIDE OF YOUR SOUL THAT NO ONE ELSE CAN UNDERSTAND, A VERY PERSONAL DARK AND TORTUROUS HELL. THEY NOT ONLY ATTACK YOUR MIND BUT YOUR VERY SOUL. THEY WANT YOU TO BE AFRAID. IT MAKES YOU MORE STRESSED AND WEAK.

THERE IS HOPE! THERE IS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE DARKNESS!AND WHEN YOU FINISH THIS JOURNEY THROUGH THE TREACHEROUS ABYSS, YOU WILL LIVE IN THE LIGHT. YOU WILL FEEL YOUR OWN SPIRIT REAWAKEN. YOU WILL BE REBORN! PRAYERS TO ALL ON THIS JOURNEY, YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!